Oncology

wake up force the body to
move attempt not to vomit
antineoplastic radioactive unexplainable autoimmune undiagnosable experimentally treatable
malignant smiles
choked-down bile hellos
the wolf rips the soft tissue
tiled mirrored sanctuary, room for you and you alone (but you'd make the exception)
later, you will attempt to take two bites of a salad, but fear of the extra free radicals might. . .
attempt not to vomit
try to just walk over there, no. just stand up. no. just
sit.
pregnant with love
aborted by selfishness and laziness
the fetal innocence of fatal choices
emesis, SLE, nephritis,

and this is hell.
and this is pure feeling.

attempt not to vom...
next time.
onset nauseua at the sight
of the butterfly that entered the coccoon so lovely
and is emerging a slimy black poisonous
thing
what is this and what am i supposed to do with it
and who is that that bites my very throat
and when will it be completed, please
hematological musculoskeletal renal dermatological
what in god's name are t-cells and why do i care how many there aren't

hemorraging nephrotoxicity

surprisingly, we live and die
by the nuclear waste injected
straight.

         into.


                 our.



         veins.